Freedom

Omg, freedom. It's such a strong word. The worse thing any living entity can do is to take it for granted. Because you think you are free until you really experience freedom and you know that nothing you have ever had prior to that moment has been freedom. Except for the same moments you've had before.

Living a life that gets you towards freedom is good, but freedom is actually so rare that even in those cases will it be hard to find it, grasp it and enjoy it.

I will write about how free I feel when I think about myself and my plans. I will write about the absence of female love and affection and how much I miss it. Sexual affection and shit is all right, but to actually care for a woman so deeply you could kill for her is something very very rare. I am proud in announcing that I am able to feel deep first love and feel it as a warmth, without a need to have anything.

I will write more about it, right now, I need to go to sleep.

I've had my first bootcamp ever this night and it went INCREDIBLY good. I guess I can now call myself a professional Pick Up Instructor. I teach men how to get good with women for money.

And I am damn good at it and it makes me SO proud of myself AND my students.

Life is good... And then she came along to rock my world. (and even though it conflicts with some things I still welcome the effect she might have in my life with open arms)

love,
- Xtreeme