Freedom

"Every man shall die. But not every man lives fully"

- Mel Gibson as "William Wallace" in "Braveheart"

What does it mean to be free? Why is freedom so hard to gain? Some people would say we are more free then we have ever been; with all the choices and opportunities there is in life these days. How could we not be free?

Of course we live in a (fairly) large planet and the circumstances are different from place to place but I'll focus on the type of society (typical Western society) I live in since this is my blog. There is a total freedom of what school to go to, it is very easy to study in a foreign country and you can become virtually anything you want in life. And this type of "freedom" applies to pretty much everything!

How can we not be free?

Actually I once saw a seminar held by some "social scientist" that all this "freedom" or "free choices" we have is actually imprisoning us. We have so many choices that it paralyzes us and I must agree. I think we all can. But I wouldn't say that the many choices is what paralyzes us or imprisons us; I'd say its our fear.

We only have one life and we don't know what-a-fuck to do with it! We don't know shit!

At least that is how we feel. That is how we have been raised to feel.

The problem, in my opinion, comes from what is expected from us. I don't buy into the concept of "not knowing" what you want out of life. Anytime somebody tells me they don't know I think to myself "No, you're just too afraid to admit what you want".

See, there's a pattern of failure and the fear and pain from it that almost everyone has inherited (or learned, as I would prefer) from our parents.

There are different stories but a major concept people in general get to hear by their parents are "Don't be like me - Succeed in life!"

And that is where I believe things go wrong. Because I believe that success is as most pleasure with as little pain as possible. I also believe that there is one and one way only to do that,
- By being free. Free from everything.

When all you do in life comes from being totally free, then you have the happiness your parents really want you to have. It doesn't mean that your life is easy, but rather meaningful.

But what is freedom? I believe the definition to be "When struggling to achieve your life goal"

It's not achieving it, nor is it chasing it. But that struggle to gain it. And I believe that the goal of your life have many forms and that the most important part is to distinguish your true goal with the temptations.

For instance,

When you struggle to stand up from the couch to go out and work out and during that work out you struggle to push your limit, you are struggling to achieve your life goal, thus being free. There are two things you want and one of them is to sit in your couch and the other to work out.

Your job is to figure out which is just a temptation and which is what you TRULY want. Of course it is different for each people and living fully is far far away from always killing yourself in struggle.

I believe that in life you must balance between Comfort and Adventure. Those two don't go hand in hand and if you go to Comfort too much you will then feel a lack of meaning in your life and boredom. If you go too much on the adventure you will loose grip of yourself and feel lost.

So the steps to freedom is simply finding out what you TRULY want to achieve and then do anything to achieve it, until that true wanting shifts.

Once you figure out what you truly want out of life on a bigger scale can you feel free to know that nothing you can ever do from that point is wrong.

So much pain comes from the fear of regret and pain. In trying to fulfill your life goal there can never be anything to regret nor feel pain from; because whatever happens is a lesson.

And really, so what? Live by avoiding pain and following your fear and you'll probably live for long. The question is how MUCH will you be living for so long?

Live by following your passion and you may or may not live long, but you will always be sure you lived your life fully.

Because really, and I'm not joking really, every man shall die. But not every man will live fully!

Who we are

"Most people have their life passing by while making grand plans for it"

- Johnny Depp acting as the drug dealer "George Jung" in the movie "BLOW"

"I think, therefore I am" said Descartes and I can't agree. Not with Eckhart Tolle either.

Great thinkers and spiritual leaders have and will always exist. An important point is to try to look at their character and their lives. Did or do they live the way YOU wish to live? Do they seem to inhabit the states of which you are looking for?

See, anybody has a sage within them. Even the stupidest of the most stupid are able to write "smart things" about philosophical BULLSHIT. Trust me, I just read a real life example of it. The more important thing is, what you rant about should be having effects on you and your life. It should make you Happy.

Moving on to the topic of WHO WE ARE. I think, therefore I am sounds pretty smart and ambitious but I do not trust it. People have these fucked up things and ideas of who they fucking are. I do, we all do. Maybe I do agree with Eckhart Tolle when saying "You are precisely who you choose to be this very moment".

Humans are animal of pack. That is why we can NEVER get rid of hierarchy. And the ones on the top of every hierarchy have learned to be lone wolfs. It not something simply bad, depending on each individual. But to be healthy in control of your life, you have to let loose of all that is expected of you.

See, you and nobody else has any power over you and when this becomes true for you, then you will not be able to be controlled or ruled. You become your own master and your own captain of the ship that is your life.

I definitely believe in dimensions when it comes to social enlightenment. When people are still living in the social matrix, blind to how it controls them they are then a product of a system. That system today is, get a job so you can buy yourself a nice car so you can attract a lady so you can get a family so you can die happy. Years ago in Scotland it was show loyalty to Longshanks, give your wife to the english landlord for one night, don't make any noise or trouble and you will live under happy circumstances.

See, the system exists because it wants you to be working in advantage for those who controls it.

Take a step back and really look at people. You will see that they aren't burned out because of stress, but because they are stressing about things they do not care about. Etc.

Social Norms. Try to break them because they are part of the system.

You are who you at this precise moment choose to be.
- Free.

Freedom

Omg, freedom. It's such a strong word. The worse thing any living entity can do is to take it for granted. Because you think you are free until you really experience freedom and you know that nothing you have ever had prior to that moment has been freedom. Except for the same moments you've had before.

Living a life that gets you towards freedom is good, but freedom is actually so rare that even in those cases will it be hard to find it, grasp it and enjoy it.

I will write about how free I feel when I think about myself and my plans. I will write about the absence of female love and affection and how much I miss it. Sexual affection and shit is all right, but to actually care for a woman so deeply you could kill for her is something very very rare. I am proud in announcing that I am able to feel deep first love and feel it as a warmth, without a need to have anything.

I will write more about it, right now, I need to go to sleep.

I've had my first bootcamp ever this night and it went INCREDIBLY good. I guess I can now call myself a professional Pick Up Instructor. I teach men how to get good with women for money.

And I am damn good at it and it makes me SO proud of myself AND my students.

Life is good... And then she came along to rock my world. (and even though it conflicts with some things I still welcome the effect she might have in my life with open arms)

love,
- Xtreeme